It has been one month and it has been the worst month of my life. Hopefully that means it can only get better! I am feeling bittersweet as Ava's 1st birthday approaches. I can't believe she is here and it has been a year already but at the same time it hurts so much knowing you are not here to celebrate with me. I am so angry and I know I will be for a very long time. You would have been an amazing grandmother and you were an amazing mother. Ava's life will be much less not having you in it but she will know you and love you and be so proud of you. I miss you and love you and I hope you will be celebrating with us on Tuesday wherever you might be.
|How I would like to always remember you|